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Everyday I walk in the rain The rain of tears from endless pain Hiding the pain behind a smile Not seen the sun in quite a while Morning brings the rain again Only the storm is hidden within No cuts or bruises to show as symptoms Everyday the internal pain beats like a drum The only symptom is not wanting to live From hidden pain no one can see to believe

Left on the floor bleeding Sitting in the shower crying As a child never understanding Waking from sleep to a beating Bleeding from head to toe Wanting to know where the hell you go Leaving the house to let the abuse happen At 5 had to protect my sister Stop his sex abuse against her Getting chased from the home Being shot at wishing he was just gone Guess you just didn't want to be alone But what you let him do was just wrong Left on the floor bleeding Sitting in the shower crying How could you let this happen Written by Michael Matthews

I was told I was nothing Everyday between the beatings I was locked outside Given no love besides Mental abuse to hold me down Making me feel like nothing but a clown All this through out my life Still fighting with all my might To prove that I am enough Written by Michael Matthews

Every night I'm reliving my past Seeing my mental and physical abuse My time is running out fast It will not matter what I choose This is the time to make my amends For all the wrongs I have done Before this life comes to and end And I have to go back to where my life begun I will lay down in my bed tonight And know I have talked to God So my life will be complete And my soul will be restored. Written by Michael Matthews

I'm so damn tired Of hating myself Of what my brain desires Being so close of losing m'self I am so damn tired Of just wanting to end it all My days are so numbered No one left to call So close to giving up the fight I am so damn tired I am ready to take the final flight Written by Michael Matthews

I just want to be dead To go to sleep And never leave this bed The hidden wounds go so deep How can I let them close When they are frequently reopened Everyday something happens to re-expose They will never be unopened I just want to go to sleep And never leave this bed Written by Michael Matthews